Seedlet's Bloggy Thing

Right now I don't have a job outside of selling art which I don't get to do very often (damned economy). So I stay at home and clean the house and do laundry, etc, and do art. The art part has me feeling guilty. I essentially have days and days of free time which I spend doing whatever I want, while my boyfriend works to bring home the bacon.

Last year I got a job at a gas station and got fired (well, they let me resign) for not being social enough. Which I guess I totally agree with, I'm pretty quiet and shy and this makes it really hard to APPLY for a job, not to mention get one. I applied recently to work in a library which I think would be neat, lots of quiet time and solitary busy work with the occasional pointing someone in the right direction. It's one of the jobs suggested online for introverts and shy people.

But if I can't get something like that, I don't know what I'll do. I shouldn't really feel guilty; my boyfriend is a great guy and isn't pressuring or guilting me about the whole job thing, he buys me supplies without me even asking (which gets him tickled into the floor) and really likes my art. He even wants me to do the graphics for the online game he is programming. Bust still.. I hate getting to do what I love practically all day with no real substantial monetary benefit while he works. *sigh* I think I'll have just to try harder to get commissions then.